Mom of 8. 5 biological and 3 I took in a year and half ago

I am a mom of five biological children and three children that are mine now I do not have custody of them their mother does. I met them in a low income housing complex where I lived. I had a Sec 8 voucher so does their mother. The kids were running around the neighborhood baking for other children children’s left over food from dinners-every day. I would hold cookouts to try and help feed some of the kids because this happened on a daily basis with children, but these children were different. The youngest was three and just turned for a month ago. The next step was six and the oldest was 13 he told me that he couldn’t stay the night unless his siblings stayed with him because his mother would not be back until Monday. This was on a Friday. I knew if they were begging for food something was wrong, especially if they’d be there all weekend without anything to eat so the kids stayed at my house. I never met the mother so months after it just didn’t sit right with me that I never got to talk to her. I didn’t know who she was and she had no idea where her kids were so I told them babies they could stay with me like they have been doing when I met the mom. It was totally unexpected. She had brand new wig on out of real hair. she had her nails done her eyelashes done and I’m not talking about clusters. I’m talking about professionally done. She had brand new clothes on brand new Jordans, and to me. I was thinking before I’d ever pay for a set of nails. I would definitely make sure my kids have food. I asked her if she had food stamps and she told me yes and I was confused as to where the food stamps were going because well there was no food in her house I had already looked. The cabinets were empty. In fact the whole house was the only thing she had was a loveseat and a small TV. There was nothing else in the house and she would leave those kids there every day by themselves with nothing. It broke my heart. It destroyed me inside, and I felt stuck. She told me it was because of the fact that she was door dashing after she would get off of her job where she was working for the food stamp agency Job And Family services. However, I held a job and did DoorDash, Uber and Lift and I would take my children with me to do DoorDash. I would make it a game and turn it into you. Get to race to go get the food you get to race to go to the door and ring the doorbell. You get to take the pictures, things like that and then I would stop and buy them something to eat with the money I was making. But I would never ever in 1 million years think oh well let’s just leave them by themselves with a 13-year-old boy who was really aggressive with them did not pay attention to them had no food to feed them and was angry inside because he was also lacking everything he needed to develop properly!! Then she proceeded to tell me that she sold her food stamps and sells them every month and that if I wanted to buy them, I could, but I was the one feeding her children, who the foodstamps belonged to and should go to every day and taking care of them every day. I had to buy them clothes because they had none I had to pay for their birthday parties in any holidays and I still do she still has custody she still keeps their food stamps, and she still sells them. She also still has her Section 8 voucher, which I lost mine because I was not allowed to have my soon to be adopted children in my home so now we are staying with my aunt all of us and we have nowhere else to go but my aunt can’t keep Housing Us. I do own a trailer and have some help from my church, I just don’t have the funding to fix my trailer and buy everything it needs, including someone to build on an additional two bedrooms. It doesn’t matter how much income you make at your job when you have eight children you are still going to be low income. Especially someone who has no degree at all. So there is no one singular job that will make enough to support eight children unless your famous. It was already a struggle with my five. I’m now running going from pantry to pantry. We also have to car ride the kids to and from school now! And that’s a lot of different time frames when there are four different schools to go to that start and ends at different times. I am doing everything possible and I’m disabled on Social Security and I can’t work. I’m very low income! I tried going back to work to two different jobs and I can’t. I’m too sick. I’ve been through a lot in life. A 3 month coma, learning to walk talk eat drink again, toe amputations from them being narcotic due to no blood flow during the coma, having open-heart surgery nine months after giving birth to my fifth childand!! And to anybody who donates I will send you my life story and answer any questions you may have if you ask me to. I’ve been through it all! In which I’m writing a book about it all. I just really need help and I really need some support. My mom sister grandparents are dead, I only have one aunt left alive, and she can’t keep helping us we are too many! I feel alone and I know my kids will only have one another if anything happens to me! My husband is 20+ years older than me, he’s also non-verbal. He can only help me so much with them. He hasn’t been able to work for the past year himself! But it’s not like at that point of him losing his job we could say “you got to go back to starving and being beat now”! They are our little souls now! I want to go fight for custody of these babies, but they are so attached to me if I lose them and they have to go back they will struggle badly in the system has already failed them six different times they sent them back to her where this has been going on since the first one was born so for 15 years now! I just don’t understand. My babies are used to eating three meals and two snacks a day and by all means I have to provide that one way or another. I don’t understand where the disconnect with her is she would rather sell it and buy marijuana nails hair and lashes before feeding her own children. I’ve already built up all the evidence I need now and I am getting stronger. I just need some help so that I can pay and go through to File for custody now and I will be reporting the fraud because I just recently learned that everything she’s doing by not reporting the children not living in the home anymore is complete fraud by selling the food stamps. It’s fraud and what has really made me want to go and file immediately is that she had the audacity for the first time in a year and a half!! to want to pick them up and take them in a vehicle by herself with no drivers license and high on marijuana!! These babies don’t even know her really. They remember her abuse and that they are terrified of her but that’s it! I cannot let these babies be in any type of danger and I won’t! Please support us.